Thursday, October 17, 2013

Confessions of A New Girl

Confessions of A New Girl
By: Lindsey Beachboard

You often see so many books and TV shows about the “new girl” in school and how her life gets practically flipped around and turned into a big drama fest that will most likely produce a sequel novel or season. Like most things in today’s society, every aspect of social life is dramatized and romanticized to look more appealing to the people viewing so they can temporarily escape from their repetitive and mundane lives.

So when I transferred out of the local, public high school, I expected all hell to break loose. I imagined the world would suddenly come to an end and I would be sucked into a never ending spiral of drama, stress, and angst from both my new and former school. So far, this hasn’t happened. Once actually getting to my new school and settling in, it felt completely normal to me. No mass explosions, no evil teachers who have it out for me, no prissy popular girls coming up to torment me. It was just like that feeling you get when you start a new grade and get different classes; you don’t really know anybody (specifically) in the classes but there aren’t already pre-defined cliques or expectations of you.

Now don’t get me wrong, my old school Peninsula High was a great school, one of the top 100 high schools in the United States. I had a small group of friends there who I still love and hang out with, but they were the only reason I stayed at that school till the end of my sophomore year. It is a gigantic school, more than 3,000 kids in my graduating class, and I already knew a lot of those kids from elementary school and high school. With that being said, there were a lot of room to “accidentally” bump into people you have a bad history with. Lady Luck was obviously not favoring me since I wound up having many classes with people who had a negative impact on my life from earlier years. Couple that with struggling through some personal, family, and emotional problems it made a nasty combo of: “I’m super depressed and I hate my life and this school.” When things continued to go downhill we looked into alternative schools, and SHAZAM we found Fusion.

Now I’m sure I could go on a list all the great things about Fusion, but most of you probably know it since all of the advantages of this school compared to normal public school is pretty obvious once you take a little tour of the campus. However, Fusion is a small school, so social interaction is slightly limited. For someone like me who is a little hesitant about bringing new people into my life (due to past experiences) and being somewhat reserved, I find this to be a much more comfortable and intimate atmosphere.

When I my first day at Fusion began, needless to say I was nervous. I didn’t know anybody or how the school worked, or where to go to the bathroom, how to get signed out, etc. I often scuttled through the hallways trying to avoid excess conversation. But after a few weeks of adjusting, some people came up and invited me to go have lunch with them. This was last week, and so far I’m becoming fairly comfortable and talkative with them. The transition from public to private/alternative is a lot easier (and more natural) than I would have ever thought. I am becoming friendlier with my peers while still maintaining my old friendships back at home. Everything balances out pretty well here at Fusion once you get used to it. I think I’m going to like it here.

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